Thursday, July 7, 2011


My appt yesterday did not go as expected....well actually in the back of my mind, I sort of DID expect it.  Per my LMP, I was 6w6d.  But I knew that was not the case since I am a late ovulater.  I figured that I would be a few days behind.

The doc did the first exam and found the gestational sac right away (thankfully just one).  The yolk sac was there too.  She couldn't however find a difinitive fetal pole or heart beat.  She said that she thought she saw something, but it may just be too early to tell.  She then sent me in to another room with a better machine and had the tech do a scan.  She saw the same thing.  She measured my gestational sac at 6w1d and "thought" she may see something, but it may be too soon to tell.  Since I don't know for sure when I ovulated, we have to give the baby the benefit of the doubt....I've heard those words before.  :(

So, I have to go back next week for another scan since the results of this one were inconclusive.  She can't say one way or the other.  Dr. C is a straight shooter and did give us a little hope, but I just have a bad feeling about it.  I pray pray pray that this little baby will GROW in the next week.  Maybe it was too early...maybe not.

It's difficult because I just read about someone who went in at 6 weeks and was able to see a healthy heartbeat.  I know that every pregnancy is different, but it just sucks really bad that I can't just have a true healthy pregnancy.  I spent alot of time crying yesterday.  D doesn't really understand.  He says "Honey, I didn't marry you to have kids....we will get through's not the end of the world."  And, I know that it's not, but when you want something so badly...I can't imagine my life with out it.  It's a hard concept to make myself believe.

Until I find out one way or the other, I am up in the air and very stressed out!