Thursday, June 30, 2011

6 weeks

Baby's now the size of a sweet pea!

This week's major developments: The nose, mouth, and ears that you'll spend so much time kissing in eight months are beginning to take shape. If you could see into your uterus, you'd find an oversize head and dark spots where your baby's eyes and nostrils are starting to form. His emerging ears are marked by small depressions on the sides of the head, and his arms and legs by protruding buds. His heart is beating about 100 to 160 times a minute -- almost twice as fast as yours -- and blood is beginning to course through his body. His intestines are developing, and the bud of tissue that will give rise to his lungs has appeared. His pituitary gland is forming, as are the rest of his brain, muscles, and bones.

How big is baby? Sweet Pea

Weight gain/loss? None yet... I need to buy a scale. 

Symptoms: Sore boobs (even though today, they are not as bad), gas, fatigue, and cramping (which I hope is a pregnancy symptom and not a miscarriage symptom.

Stretch marks? Nope

Maternity clothes? Not maternity, but definetely loving the elastic waisted pants that I bought.

Sleep? Lots of it.  Crazy dreams too.

Best moment this week? Flipping the calendar over to July and seeing that my first appt is less than one week away.

Food cravings? Haven't really had any cravings.  More aversions, than anything.

Gender? Will have to wait quite some time for this.
Movement? Way too soon.
Belly button? In

What do I miss? Not being consumed by anxiety all day long.  Oh, and being able to drink a beer with my friends.  The 4th of July festivities will definetely be different this year.  I wouldn't trade if for the world, though.

How do I feel? Very nervous.  Next Wed. can't come fast enough.

Monday, June 27, 2011

5 weeks

According to my LMP, I am 5w4d today.  It has been a pretty uneventful week symptom wise.  I  have been absolutely exhausted and went to bed before the sun went down last night (and that's after 2 daytime naps).  My boobs are pretty sore, but only on the outsides.  They tend to hurt more at night.  The bloating has gone down just a little.  Last week, I couldn't even keep my pants buttoned.  I go pee just a tad bit more than normal.  So all in all...not too bad.

Speaking of symptoms.....this morning, I had to speed into the parking lot of  Sheetz, run in, and puke in the nasty gas station bathroom.  Sign of pregnancy?  Not sure.  I feel much better now.

We told D's sister and BIL this past weekend.  We thought for sure that they would figure it out when I wasn't drinking, but much to our surprise, we had to come out and tell them.  D made the announcement as we were walking by Babies R Us in Union Square.  They were very excited.

Last night we came home from NJ/NYC and told D's parents.  I didn't really get the reaction that I was hoping for, but I guess they are still a little "gun shy" about the whole thing.  No one wants to get their hopes up and have them destroyed, but I HAVE to live each day as I am pregnant.  If I don't, I will drive myself bonkers worrying about what may happen.  YES, I am scared to death....but TODAY I am pregnant.  I am enjoying this gift that God gave to us.

First appointment is on Wed July 6th.  I will be 6w6d.  Fingers crossed that everything will be perfect.

Wednesday, June 22, 2011

It's Official

I am knocked up!  After another two tests that were so faint that I didn't think it could be true, I broke down and did a blood test yesterday.  Dr. M called me back himself to deliver the news.  I am so excited, yet sooo scared.

It's so hard to believe that after months of fertility treatments and no response, that my body would get the message on our "break" month.  I am just really glad that I have gotten to know my body so well, and could tell that I was ovulating.  Had it not been for all of the girls on The Bump, etc....I would not know anything about how to get pregnant.  So, I can't thank them enough! 

We were all set to do IUI next month which was going to drain us of at least $1000 per cycle.  I was really apprehensive about spending that kind of money, but if it would give us what we so badly want in the end...okey doke!  Looks like that is not an issue now!  So ironic, right?

I am going to try to take one day at a time and know that each pregnancy is different.  What happened last time may not happen this time and I can't live each day in fear that it will.  I need to wake up each morning and say "today, I am pregnant", and move on.

Preliminary dates:

LMP : Feb 23, 2012
O date: March 1, 2012

2012 is a leap year, so who knows....maybe we will have a leap year baby!  :)

So, there ya have it!  We will only be telling a few people (need to know basis) right away, so if you follow my blog....shhhhhhh...... just count yourself as privy!  :)  Please don't blab!

Monday, June 20, 2011

Stuck in Limbo

and hate it!  I woke up this morning to a small temp rise.  So, I figured what the hell....  I tested with a Wondfo brand test and waited.  Waited, waited, waited.  That wait sucks so bad!

Well when I went to check it out...heart pounding a thousand miles a minute.  Why is it that no matter how many pregnancy tests I take, I still get very nervous.  I saw something.  It was VERY faint and I had to turn the test in different lights to see it.  Oh and did I mention that I had to squint to see it, but I saw something.  Exciting right? Not really.....I am just not sure that it is what I want it to be.  What if it's an evap line or there is just something wrong with the test, etc....

So here I sit....waiting......  Trying to decide if I want to test again today or just wait until tomorrow.  Decisions....Decisions.....

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Sad Day

Not much to say today's not only Father's Day, but today is my due date.  I should have been delivering today (or somewhere around today).  I am trying not to think about it too much, but it's there, in my mind.  :( top it all off, I had a temp dip today (10 DPO).

Sorry to be a Debbie Downer today, but that's all I got.

Friday, June 17, 2011

Back From Break

This month has been nothing short of wonderful.  We decided to take a step back from TTC for a while and I even went on vacation without my thermometer...crazy, I know....  I didn't even know what CD I was on.  And then it hit me....

I was working from home last Wed (which I later found out was CD21 when I felt the tell tale signs of ovulation (for me at least).  I was bloaty and kind of crampy.  I thought, maybe just maybe my body is doing its thing.  I went out and bought a few OPK's and to my happy knowledge, the first one was positive! 

As much as I wanted to take it easy, I could not.  We started sexn' it up and the next morning....that purple mainstay, Mr. Thermometer, was back on top of my nightstand.  I am now 8 DPO and my chart definetly shows that I ovulated.  Did you hear me???  I OVULATED ON MY OWN.....WITHOUT CLOMID!  I ovulated on my own and on CD22.  :)

I guess this throws a little kink in our plans to move ot IUI next month.  If I am ovulating on my own, we are going to attempt a couple more months.  What's a couple of months when we would be saving lots of money and not being on fertility meds?

So, fingers crossed.  We shall see.....

I will leave you with a few pictures from our nice relaxing vacation to Florida in May.