One would think that after 11 cycles of failure, the feeling of defeat wouldn't be so present. But it is. It's still there. Everytime I look at that blank test. Everytime I realize that I cannot give my husband what he so badly wants, what we so badly want! Everytime I think that I may never be a mom.
I was very hopeful about this cycle, but my hopes were suddenly crushed when I looked at my thermometer this morning. A huge temp drop. So here I sit, wating for my period to make its appearance.
At this point, I don't know what to do. I am so heartbroken.
Of course I know how lucky I am to have a husband that loves me for me. I have a beautiful fur baby who loves me unconditionally (and loves to comfort me while I cry). A great house. A great job. A great life. Except in this department.
Maybe I need to turn my way of thinking around (easier said than done). I need to be happy with me! I think maybe a cycle off before moving to IUI will do me good!
2 comments:
Wish I could give you a big hug! I say you spoil yourself and go on a trip with the hubby and relax before your IUI.
Hey girl-pleeeease email me at livinginyellow@gmail.com. I am so excited for what you posted on my blog today and want to chat with you more about it, and also send you some love. Can't wait to hear from you!
-E
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